人生~

  人生总是会有那么一两件你无法去控制，去改变的事情。以前总是不知道这句话的意义。在今天，我经历了一些或许会让我一辈子无法忘怀的事情。这件事情，也让我明白了亲情只不过是有血液上的某种联系罢了。

  我的爸爸今天突然出现中风征状，他没有要我妈妈去找他的那些朋友。他想到的是我的大伯，和他吵架吵了20年的那个以前是很好的大哥的我的大伯。我们左等右等都等不到他来，才知道他有事情。他没有给一通电话要我们去找别人，让我们等。等了，以为就会来了，却只是打了一个电话过来，询问我妈妈我爸爸的症状，是不是很严重那些。为什么他不要来到我家才来问，他不知道这种病是不能拖太久的吗？

  我感到很无能，为什么我当初不要去学驾车？我会的话，我马上能带我爸爸去医院。而不是一拖再拖。我真的很担心。忍着不要哭出来。我最讨厌被人看到我哭了。妈妈跟着爸爸去医院，妹妹他们去上学。我没去，在家做家务，顾家，帮忙家里的生意。一整天，受到了无数询问关于爸爸的病情。一听一次，我一想，就想哭了。逼自己不去想那些事情。希望一切往好的方向走。

  大姐从新加坡赶回来了，打算到爸爸病情好了以后才会去工作。其实我也想过，我能不能就此休学，然后明年才继续我的学业？ 一想到这里，就觉得我的一切似乎很早就订好了。让我想就依着这条路这样走下去。

总结：希望爸爸能平安无事，快快恢复。真的，诚心祈求。

Holiday!

  It was holiday already and I now will not any feel about it. This is because I got tuition yesterday and today. This evening when I just wake up from my bed, already want to help my mom. I am so hungry and until now no fill my stomach. Hungry.

  My dad just come back from hospital melaka for checking his health. Doctor tell that his many brain's cell is dead and he would become vegative people. I very worry about it and hope he will become well.

  Vignesh is call me just now and he say Kevin ask me to go Coffee Corner. I dont understand why Kevin dont want to ask me himself leh?! I dont mind to go because dont want to meet it. Vignesh ask me to go but I think is better no go.Hehe.

  I feel sad and anxious about my life and my friend. I ask my friend to go out limteh and she say she is no free. But I got some picture of her with my other friend yesterday and today. Maybe I am the one less important or can be ignore? Nobody can understand me and it was a bad feeling and bad day for me.

STRESS~

  My exam just pass for 1 week.And I finally feel stress......Now already July and it will be August no far again. My real exam of STPM located in November.So, it was 3 month and 120++days.

  Yesterday, my teacher give us our MUET exam's mark and I get band 1 only. My friend randomly get band 3 and just 3 people get band 2 while they must be get band 3 if get 1 more mark. The impossible thing is my WRITING only got 25 marks out of 150marks. What's my problem? This is what I am thinking at that time. The highest mark of my class is 120. How far the differences?!! Feel sad. Like to cry at that time, but I hold back it. I don't want others to see me crying and ugly face. I got it, I didn't cry. Shan and others talk me don't be sad, it got times for me to improve it. And don't be worry because I did not register to stay the MUET exam at end of this year.

 Btw, I feel stress too and deserted to find some ways to improve my english. I can't sleep well and always think about it.

 Stress,stress,stress!!!! What I the most hate and why it come to me? Just get away from me and don't come to disturb me! I don't welcome you.

转瞬即逝~

   申请大学的事，好像就发生在昨天而已。因为看回了我怕之前的帖子。回想去我那时的迷茫，坚持，决定，真的很难以置信，为什么当时我会有那些想法……

  现在读着中六了，也有2个月的时间了。下星期就是我的第一次中六考试。没信心。真的没有信心。就算是小指头的一丁点信心都没有。我还没搞好我的math-T，chemistry，还有biology。【pa还是丢进垃圾桶吧，不想看！】

  早上爱嘉他们一到就跟我讲他们车祸，真的吓到我。还好没事，只是车刮花了。人没事就好。

  然后呢，今早的活动是彭氏宗亲会的婚姻注册官来主讲以“马来西亚婚姻法令”为主题的讲座。学到了一些新知识，比如，：同姓能够结婚，堂兄妹不能结婚，表兄妹可以。我班的班长问了一个能我很爆笑的问题，表兄弟能不能结婚？看清楚了，他问的是表兄弟哦！哈哈。

  原本今天犹豫了要不要年底拿MUET的，结果最后意识到我根本就没达到那种水准，硬要拿的话，就只是浪费了那RM101咯。不是小数目，所以我很要自知之明的放弃在今年年底拿了。就让我多一年的时间去练习我的英语，毕竟不是一天两天我的英语就会变好的。虽然有一些些懒惰去练习，不过看在要进大学的份上，我勉强努力一点点好了。


总结:今天好像发生很多事情呀！不过main point是，多4天考试了啦！OMG！